My girlfriend an i are on a break?

her friend lied to her and said i was lieing to her bout me doing drugs behind her back when i havent at all i beenoopen bout everything with my gf when we got into the relationship i told her i smoke and drink but i been clean for awhile and i even let her know about my past with drugs. i told her that even if i were going even smoke weed i would tell her first she dont mind me smoking weed as long as i dont lie to her which i dnt wanna smoke weed or do drugs anymore i rather have her then go back to who i used to be. monday we talked about alot i cried so much as did she and i never cried over a girl b4 cuz i never had these feelins for a girl. she says she cares about me alot still and she just parinoid about the lieing thing the whole time i couldnt even look her in the face but i looked her in the eys and told her that i would never lie to her and i be honest about everything even if the conciquences are bad for me cuz i dont wanna hurt her i care about her to much to do that. she then said that she never had the alone time after her last boyfriend and she hoped into our relationship right away tbut she was going to say i love you but she was scared and for the first time in my life i didnt get scared by the idea of a girl saying i love you to me. so now we are on a brake cuz she says we guna take a brake and need tine and space i respected that and since monday we been on a brake and the whole week i been bugging out i smoked my way through so many cigs that its making me sick she aksed one of my friends how i was doing my friend said not to great then she said that things are going to get better what does that mean like i keep over thinking everything. and that **** just make it hard for me. we both enjoy reading writing and love music we always wrote poems for each other so i wrote her one it took me all week to write it and has to be the most heart felt one i ever did. i wanna read it to her tonight so she can see what i rlly fell and right now i am scared shitless that im going to lose her and i dont wnat that to happen i havent slept in 4 days i barely ate anything. everytime i sleep i just dream about her and the smile she giives me man it just brings me to my kness. i dont know what to do i wanna send her the txt to ask her if we can meet up tonight but i cant bring myself to do it cause im so scared if she says no or sumthing can anyone help me right now i rlly need this and plzz no stupid answers